Scream.

I need to scream.

Can I scream?

k. thanks.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

*frustration*

my life is awesome.

why do these little things have to get under my skin so much? just little stupid things. I am SO thankful for everything I have, I am. But that doesn't mean that I am not irritated/frustrated/complicated. blah.

If you are looking for an intelligent blog post, wait a little while. I may write a celebration poem when I finish my thesis.

Katie

Addendum:

It is especially frustrating when you want this sort of complication and you can't tell anyone. You are human and get irritated with people. To express this irritation to other people would be gossip and pulling yourself into the same drama you so loathe. To express this irritation to the people in question... well, if that was plausible/possible you've already done it.

So you bottle up the scream and try to find someone who will buy it off of eBay... after all, who doesn't want a bottle of Scream?

FRUSTRATION!!

This is a rant.

Prepare yourselves.

1) Why, may I ask, do people use Facebook? To connect with friends, or maybe acquaintances. To learn more about (*coughfacebookstalkcough*) people they see but don't know so well. To keep in touch with people who ARE friends. Real friends.

2) Why, may I ask, do people add others as 'friends'? Well, see #1. Usually out of cordiality, curiosity, or camaraderie.

3) Why, may I ask, do people unadd others from their 'friends'? When I've done it in the past, it's been because of something offensive (i.e. language) or just as a cleanup of sorts. People I never see anymore and will probably never see again.

...so then, why have I been serially unfriended by a certain clique? I see them semi-regularly, I have never posted anything offensive on my Facebook or anyone else's, and I never did anything to offend them personally... I don't think.

What is protocol, then? It puts me in an awfully awkward situation. Knowing that I have been defriended, that is. We aren't "tight" by any standards, but I didn't know there were bad feelings. Do I just walk up to them and ask why we're no longer 'friends'? Do I re-request them? Or do I sit on it and try to avoid them, knowing that something must have sparked this?

I repeat: we are not "tight." This is not impacting my life. I could move on. But I still see these people. I know I'm taking it all too personally... there might be other reasons for this... but I don't know what they are and I don't know how to react.

Katie

Rantish. Young Adult Fiction.

I cannot read young adult fiction.
It is bad for me. You know why?

1. It has awful writing in general that is wayyy below my standard/what I should be reading.
2. The content is just not helpful. Seriously?
3. All of the books have the same plot.
4. They are either about teens who have magical powers and/or enemies with magical powers, or they are about teens with "average" lives but absolutely ridiculous circumstances.
5. An AP Lit student reading the majority of YA Fiction is like a vegetarian eating this.
6. Every time I try to read YA Fiction, I end up wondering why my life is not like the protagonist's.
7. Why I don't have my Cinderella moment.
8. Why I don't have a boyfriend.
9. Why I don't show up to a social event, looking way too pretty for my own good despite not spending any time at all on my hair.
10. Why; halfway through the night when I am depressed, alone, and not expecting it; that one guy who is way out of my league doesn't come up to me and confess his love to me.

Honestly? My life is not like that.

Honestly? I don't think I want my life to be like that. Can you imagine the pressure?

Especially if you are busy having your Cinderella moment whilst trying to deal with wings growing out of your knees and an evil arch-nemesis with super-X-ray-laser-4D vision. That is serious stuff!

Also, Cinderella has to clean a lot, and I don't like to clean.

Katie

Tulips are pretty. Tuips are not.

I just spent 3.5 hours reading and writing about Limited Atonement.

My perspective:

I am not a Calvinist.

If you are going to be something, be it all the way. If you want to call yourself a Calvinist, I think you have to be a 5-point Calvinist... a TULIP.

For you uneducated, that's-

• Total Depravity
• Unconditional Election
• Limited Atonement
• Irresistible Grace
• Perseverance of the Saints.

Some "Calvinists," or "4-point Calvinists" do not believe in Limited Atonement. It scares a lot of people away. It scares me, although I can't say it's scared me away, since I'm still here.

Problem: 4-point Calvinism = TUIP. Pronounced "twip." And that's just not attractive.

Here's the problem... a lot of Calvinist theology is built on Limited Atonement. I can't tell you how many arguments in my Manual for Christian Doctrine book are built off of the assumption of Limited Atonement. How can you, then, call yourself Calvinist when you don't believe the middle of the 5 main points? It's still okay... just find yourself a different name. I do not call myself a Calvinist because I cannot adhere with certainty to their doctrine.

Now, for you who are wondering, "Uhhhh, what is this limited atonement thing?"

Copied and pasted from a wonderful website Google found me...

Jesus died only for the elect. Though Jesus’ sacrifice was sufficient for all, it was not efficacious for all. Jesus only bore the sins of the elect. Support for this position is drawn from such scriptures as Matt. 26:28 where Jesus died for ‘many'; John 10:11, 15 which say that Jesus died for the sheep (not the goats, per Matt. 25:32-33); John 17:9 where Jesus in prayer interceded for the ones given Him, not those of the entire world; Acts 20:28 and Eph. 5:25-27 which state that the Church was purchased by Christ, not all people; and Isaiah 53:12 which is a prophecy of Jesus’ crucifixion where he would bore the sins of many (not all).

...I kind of think they might be starting to convert me. Scary thought, right? We'll save that talk for later.

Katie